Her Sunshine

“Any emotion, if it is sincere, is involuntary.  -Mark Twain”

An unpleasant feeling.

Ignorance is bliss, I’m agreeing now. It is really good not to care about too many things, or anything beyond your boundary.

It stresses me when I happened to know too much. So I know now, when anyone fails to reply me, that could be a hint that I am in no position to know anything.

I wonder why I should need to know when those do not even affect me. It is just wasting of my time and my memory space.

No idea, I hope I wouldn’t need to care too much.

Now, I thought I should drop my ego, pick and learn at my own speed, own target.

No joy but angst. Why is that so?!

I welcome all competition, but I can be a real sore loser. I can hate you to the utmost till you cry like baby in your mama’s arm.

I felt like I have too much to handle, too little time.

Damn. After so much of bullshitting, after all, all I need is to do my best.

Still, it felt empty there.

I tear watching this.

Every single improvements made, I am happy.  I don’t yearn for full marks. I can be over the moon even for the half mark of improvement.

It just felt like my hard work actually paid off for the bit of improvement. =)

Definitely the encouragements and guidance from my friends played a major part in it.

I am glad.

(Taken on our 2^nd anniversary, camera stopped working until we started to walk up the slope.)

These days had been busy – work, school, training etc.  It felt like too many things to do with too little time.  Anyway, many things did happen in the peak period and from there I read a lot and got many different insights.

Somehow in my psychology class, we talked about a book named, “Tuesday with Morrie”.  I guess is really a nice book and it moved me a little even when we had discussion about it.  I think I am going to get the book soon. 

A class discussion about the book and these are the few sentences that I had caught.

And part of the book said about a question given to others and Morrie, “Look out of the window, what you would appreciate?” 

Some others said and gave praises about the beauty of the sceneries outside the window.

But Morrie said, “I appreciated the window that gave me a chance to see the world outside.”

I thought was meaningful. =)  Many people just forgotten to appreciate those who are closer to them and always tend to see further.  It’s so true.

Now, I’m so fortunate to have very encouraging friends to stand by my side.  People only understand how exactly it feels when they are in the shoes.  In my current state, I am really trying to balance very single aspect I am doing and I wanted to do well.  However, physically I am drained and seemed like everything was going from bad to worst.  Nonetheless, encouragements are again here at the right time, putting the fire back into me.  “Obstacles are never here to make you fail, but to make you stronger.” – My conclusion over the days.  Seriously, buck up.  Obstacles are challengers and works pretty much like an alarm that wake me up to do things wholeheartedly. 

I am so going to the next level now.

A bubbly day I had with those kiddos today, as well as my cousin’s birthday celebration. =)

(This 3 year old boy can say the most accurate, “Fuck”. I am impressed. Haha!)